“We are whole as well as unique, and each aspect of our lives–the emotional, mental and spiritual as well as the physical–is rich and complex and deeply connected to the others. Each of us is brought up in a particular family at a given time and in a specific place. Each of us is a member of a socioeconomic and ethnic group.
….Understanding all the dimensions of a life is crucial to understanding each person and his or her illnesses. Addressing them may make possible a successful treatment that a more narrow approach would dismiss or ignore.” MANIFESTO FOR A NEW MEDICINE ~ James S. Gordon, M.D.
When a person contacts me for a distant healing, we create a time when he or she can join in at the same time—this moment of meeting is also arranged at a soul level—a moment of sacred synchronicity. Asking a client to join in frequently allows them to sense the energies in all kinds of ways and they can also give you feedback about their healing experience. All that a practitioner needs is the name and birth date of the subject and the place where they reside now. Inviting the healing process begins at the spiritual level addressing imbalances at present time … this spiritual connection helps to pick up a range of messages coming from different parts of a person’s body. Many times, after the client and I have discussed the healing, we may also focus on his or her astrological chart to gain a greater understanding to their current issues. 90% of the time, the client is eager to have an astrological point of view that provides a reflection of his or hers own ‘inner nature’.
Many people, often as the result of a life crisis or through a gradually increasing interest, feel a pressing need to get in touch with their Self and to discover, in their own unique way, their nature and place in the universe. In the search for a method to be used as self-development they turn to sources of inspiration from ancient times—one such system is astrology. Carl Jung, saw the human psyche as a rich tapestry of forces and interactions—he used astrology to access aspects of the human personality which still lay below the surface.
Carl Jung used astrology to reveal the psychological characteristics, patterns, and dynamics of his clients. In a letter to a prominent astrologer (Dr. B.V. Raman of India) he wrote, “As I am a psychologist, I am chiefly interested in the particular light the horoscope sheds on certain complications in a person’s character. In cases of difficult psychological diagnosis, I usually cast a horoscope in order to have a further point of view from an entirely different angle. I must say that I very often found that astrological data elucidated certain points which I otherwise would have been unable to understand.”
Your natal chart is like a fingerprint, there’s none other like it in the world. Wherever you are in the world you’ll react in the same way and respond in the same; why .. because .. you are you.
The type of astrology we’re going to look is called astropsychology (individual astrology). When doing a chart, what we’re looking for is a pattern, a repetitive pattern in your behavior—the way you take information in and the way you send information out—it will show, how you respond to any environment. Astropsychology is about self-awareness, self acceptance and eventually leading to better ways of knowing yourself, of knowing what you’re doing, understanding why you act in certain ways and then disciplining yourself with higher awareness to overcome imprinted beliefs and behaviors. It’s about balancing our energies and discovering our natural abilities and merging them with our knowledge to manifest in our lives day in and day out. We are responsible for our own actions as others are responsible for theirs. Astrology is about stripping ourselves of our outer masks (superficialities) and exposing our true inner nature. And it’s about now, it’s about change happening now, for as you will discover you have ultimate control over your chart.
Manic Depression/Bipolar people are truly gifted with many wonderful attributes that have been masked by their symptoms. Their bodies are increasingly sensitive to things the mind cannot know—physically they feel their depressions and anxieties—even when hidden under the guise of good humor and a couple of stiff drinks. Social pressures at home, at work and at school can intensify this disorder, creating other conditions such as Diabetes, Thyroid disorders, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and many more.
“Creativity is closely associated with bipolar disorder. This condition is unique. Many famous historical figures and artists have had this. Yet they have led a full life and contributed so much to the society and world at large. See, you have a gift. People with bipolar disorder are very very sensitive. Much more than ordinary people. They are able to experience emotions in a very deep and intense way. It gives them a very different perspective of the world. It is not that they lose touch with reality. But the feelings of extreme intensity are manifested in creative things. They pour their emotions into either writing or whatever field they have chosen” ~ Preeti Shenoy, Life is What You Make It
We know from the previous articles on manic depression that the brain of a person with bipolar does not move dopamine and other chemicals of the brain in the same way that the brain of someone without bipolar does. A lack of dopamine may explain the drug addiction and thrill-seeking behavior of most people with bipolar. However, I do believe everyone can sculpt a fulfilling life out of what they’ve been born with, but it will take a lot of hard work and willpower to change old habits developed in response to bipolar symptoms. Being realistic about the great stress it has on your life and in your relationships is important but also doubly important is being hopeful and optimistic. Medications can help find your own balance point as you see bipolar in fresh ways. And all medications should be tried under the direction and observation of your doctor whom you told of your medical history.
When the harder aspects of astrology are accepted as the flip side of the very positive aspects of a natal chart, a balance can be achieved. So often astrologer’s have found a person’s greatest talents arose directly out of their most challenging aspects. Yet many astrology books will describe squares or oppositions as indicating a person’s greatest faults or weaknesses, whereas trines and sextiles shown a person’s talents or virtues.
“The energies expressed by planets in square to one another are often compulsive, too forceful, and often rooted in feelings of resentment or vulnerability. Obviously, these circumstances tend to bring out the less pleasant qualities of the energies involved. The energies represented by planets in square aspect can be very dynamic and productive – rather like an athlete who can objectively accomplish more because in training he must constantly work with a handicap … like running uphill, but they are not comfortable – either for the person who owns them, or for the people who have to deal with him.” http://www.enchantedspirit.org/Astrology/Definitions/Square.php
The first step in breaking habits is to become our own spectators. Paying attention to our facial expressions, gestures, tics, and posture can help us to see ourselves more clearly so we can begin to change certain performances of our personality. We need to learn to test ourselves too, to see where we hold strengths and weaknesses and continually improve on the weaknesses or use our strengths to counter balance them.
“In the Yoga Vasishtha, the Goddess of Wisdom explains, “Consciousness, mind, and space: These are not different things. Each of these is all pervading. This true intelligence inside you, the awareness buried beneath the everyday rambling of your mind, pervades all space. All living things are connected through this network of intelligence. It is the basis of telepathy, precognition, spiritual healing, astrology, and other occult powers.
This intelligence is perfectly tranquil, which is why people with agitated minds are unable to tap into it. There is a part of your mind which swells within this Divine Intelligence. Yogis call it the confined body. It is everywhere, and its powers are unlimited. It is the Supreme Divine Awareness Itself.” Yoga Journal May – June 1996
THE ASTROLOGICAL NATAL CHART
The astrological natal chart reflects both our light and dark shadows, our strengths as well as aspects of ourselves that need healing. It’s a way of being able to ‘observe the self’ and understanding a deeper meaning of the life journey, particularly our painful life experiences. Awareness of certain energies at work within ourselves gives us the opportunity to shift out away from our typical knee-jerk reactive mode. The most practical perspective that will help you understand astrology in general is that everything works in polarities.
“Astrology is neither a perfected science nor solely an art form created by the intuitive faculties of the various people who practice it. Astrology combines certain elements of science, art, and intuition and as such it is a unique field of study. Astrology is a diagnostic tool which has been given to Man so that he may begin to understand his roots in infinity and the higher laws of creation which govern him. Astrology, therefore, is not an end unto itself. On the contrary, it is a beginning, for the planets and stars are but giant, symbolic bodies through which the complicated truths of the Universe may be expressed.” Alan Okin’s Complete Astrology ~ Alan Okin
The process of becoming aware and learning/discovering what’s best in us takes courage, as we are being readied to meet oneself. We all come with our own unique history; bringing our own particular strengths and weaknesses, performances and abilities. For most of us, we often find ourselves playing a role, just showing a part of ourselves and keeping other parts hidden. As we gain control of our abilities and interactions with the spiritual side of life, we are able to co-create, give form and manifest results in our physical world.
We are all familiar with some aspects of ourselves that are resistant to change, even if we feel quite aware about what we would like to do. If you encounter resistance, don’t berate or judge yourself, relax, sit down and take the time to explore your chart and find out why certain aspects are there.
Inside each of us is a variety of subpersonalities (archetypes) (eg., the hero, the victim, the nurturer) that contribute to how we respond to life experiences. We’re going to look at the astrological chart of a person diagnosed with manic depression who blamed his parents for the ‘screw-ups’ in his life. “My parents haven’t any idea what they’ve done to me, I don’t know who I am, I haven’t any self-esteem and it’s ‘all’ their fault”.
Our identity stems from our family and if that is removed, it often leaves us hanging emotionally. I mean—think about it—our family is our foundation, our home. There’s no question that what a person has been through can impact how they feel about themselves. It alters the way we look and deal with the world; bitterness can lead to depression and a lack of motivation. Instead of dealing with our anger and sad feelings, we tend to blame our screw-ups on those closest to us .. our parents.
In astrology, the ascendant, rising sign or 1st house represents our appearance, the physical body, and its overall health and vitality. Your body image has been influenced and shaped by your parents and people who influenced your family and the environment/society you lived in as a child. You could say it’s the landscape of your body, formed by the foods available to your parents at the time. It’s also based on the genetic makeup of your early ancestors and the food they ate, especially if from a different land. It’s also been called the mask we wear when relating with other people. Planets that aspect the rising sign can alter the flow of energy, positively or negatively throughout the body.
The sun and moon reflects the energies that were going on between our parents at the time of our conception. The relationship between the luminaries in the natal chart also plays a significant role in our behaviors, attitudes and beliefs as well as our relationship with others.
Anger, blame, guilt, fear and all other negative emotions when not acknowledged and released weaken your natural resistance to disease and aging. They clog up your cells, slow down your metabolism and wear out your heart. Where we’ve been hurt, abused, abandoned or betrayed .. any of these wounded feelings can settle in your arteries, joints, throat, eyes, brain or digestive track.
CASE STUDY #1
The name and date of birth of the following person has been changed to protect his identity.
The natal chart we’re looking at is a young man named Mitch, born in 1997 and diagnosed bipolar at the age of 12. At this tender age, Mitch was already heavily into drugs and in trouble with the law .. as you can tell by his birth date, he’s only heading towards his 18th year. Here’s a short overview of his chart…
SUN IN CANCER
In Cancer, we enter the world of emotions and feelings as well as needs, intuition and our ability to bond with another human being. Cancer’s Moon has been said to represent the wounded inner child, since it holds the sensitive part of us that is vulnerable, dependent and needy.
“In Gemini, the soul was urged to move out of its self perceptions and embrace its universal self, the one that knows it is connected to all things. If this did not occur, then the phase of Cancer will be difficult. The self beomces imprisoned in itself and indifferent to others. Spirit provides warmth, compassion and understanding; when it’s missing, reality appears distorted. Emotional needs become “black holes,” and nothing in the material world is enough to make the soul feel secure. The dark feelings of the Cancer find relief in humor and in an interest in society and all its frivolities. Cancers are either the king and queens of superfluous behavior or courageous navigators of the truth and the unknown.” The Day We Were Born ~ Linda Joyce
For most of us it is much harder to express our feelings than to opinions, facts or theories. If you listen to people’s conversations, they are either describing things, events or people or exchanging ideas and/or opinions about something. Very rarely do we hear things about personal feelings, because talking about feelings is risky. Feedback is the risk of learning something about yourself you didn’t know before (or did, but didn’t want to know) And there’s also the risk of being misunderstood or not accepted. Yet, are these worthwhile risks to learn more about ourselves.
Mitch told me he often bottles up his feelings, especially around his friends and mother but ends up losing his temper at someone else, causing a reaction he was afraid would happen in the first place.
“Cancers struggle with mood swings, and their obsessive behavior demands they learn emotional control. Constantly battling frustration, they seek stability in their environment. It’s why they like antiques, tradition and the past. It gives them a feeling of connectedness and belonging. They are prone to collecting and easily fall into habits. They’d rather repeat an experience any day than try something new. They can easily get stuck in a rut. A mate can help here. Often Cancers are attracted to partners who bring the change they themselves are afraid to initiate.
All Cancers deal with fear. It’s the neck brace that keeps them rigid. They also struggle to contain emotional tension, beginning in childhood.” The Day You Were Born ~ Linda Joyce
I told Mitch that from Aries through Cancer, we experience the elements of Fire (Aries), Earth (Taurus), Air (Gemini) and Water (Cancer). Water has no taste, no shape or color; water ‘needs’ other materials ‘to be observed’. Pour water into a container and suddenly it takes shape. Flavor it with something and it has taste. So feelings and emotions are only seen by something outside of us, causing internal ripples.
SUN SQUARE SATURN IN 4th HOUSE
“…When Saturn is shadowing the Sun in the natal chart, for the Sun describes the ego and sense of self-worth. In the final analysis, the individual feels a lack of acknowledgment for who he really is and usually goes through life feeling unrecognized no matter how much acclaim comes his way. The sadness that sets in is like putting shade over a bright light. The sun describes not only the ego and sense of self-worth but the real essence of soul quality. If a person is denied by others often enough, he quite naturally begins to deny himself and his existence. He feels unimportant, and may be motivated to get the acknowledgment he craves and feels he deserves in a variety of ways, sometimes by being lured on by the reward or ego stroking he hopes to receive for a job well done. His diligence is rarely acknowledged fully, however, as he was programmed for lack of acknowledgment at that all-important time of birth.” ASTROLOGY AND YOUR PAST LIVES ~ Jeanne Avery
Child abuse and feeling deprived has created a huge chip on Mitch’s shoulders; he feels rejected and betrayed by life and trusts no one. He has such a great fear of being controlled by others that any restriction causes Mitch to fight back with a fighting rage. The root and deep scar of his sorrow is a sense of emotional abandonment from his alcoholic father. All his stuffed-down feelings have kept him moving to avoid feeling. He couldn’t turn to his mother for help who cleaned endlessly and was overly involved in the community; she went out of her way to help others to avoid her pain.
Mitch left home at the tender age of 15; he realized too that he was like his mother, running and keeping his life in high gear to avoid facing his real feelings of loss and emotional intimacy.
I told Mitch to see his constant running as a form of addiction. We will see with other aspects that he was into drugs and alcoholism but not all forms of addiction are physical. Addictions can represent desires, attachments, demands, expectations, emotional programming, anything that keeps us in the past instead of the here and now. Addictions disempower you by making you worried, anxious, resentful, uptight, afraid, angry, bored or any other obsessive thought pattern that prevents you from taking responsibility for your life.
Mitch told me “Then I guess you’d say I’m addicted to cutting. When I’m feeling down about myself I hurt myself by cutting my arms all up. I would rather feel physical pain then the emotional hurt that I have in my life”. Overall he felt anger, sorry, hurt and frustrated; instead of talking about it, he hurt himself.
I told Mitch that cutting make take his mind off his problems but that wouldn’t make them go away. Self-mutilation is connected to low self-esteem. Think about it. It makes sense .. Mitch cuts himself with words like “you’re worthless: or you’re not going to amount to anything.”
At some point, I told Mitch, you will decide that your “background” isn’t going to stand in your way any longer. You’re young and your wounds are fresh; it’s your fear of emotional pain that makes you so sensitive and hell-bent it won’t happen again. But this energy you’re feeling radiates from you to others—they know on a deeper level what you’re thinking and feeling—they act in accord. People’s reactions to you. are from what you’re projecting—energy put out into the world comes back to us like a boomerang.
To come into balance we have to embrace our polar opposite and for you that’s Capricorn. Capricorn is about responsibility, it’s showing you that you alone are the creator of your experiences, that no one else can cause you to feel what you feel in any situation. As mentioned in the summary Mitch needs to share himself with others; once he does his problems will begin to dissolve.
“The wonderful light that each person is needs a distinct darkness to define it. The darkness providing your balance and cosmic equilibrium is now only a vague shadow. By witnessing true darkness, the opposite of the goodness that you are, your spirit will become more clearly defined. You will become more fully aware of when darkness or negativity has come into your life, and you will be able to acknowledge it, change it, or leave the situations, instead of simply becoming entangled or lost in the darkness.
ASCENDANT SQUARE NEPTUNE – SUN IN CANCER OPPOSITE NEPTUNE – MERCURY OPPOSITE NEPTUNE
Before you get to know someone, their ascendant or rising sign will probably make a much bigger impression on you than their sun sign. The rising sign will play a big part in the way someone dresses, looks, and the way they carry themselves. Your Ascendant/Rising Sign also represents your general outlook on life. It is the lens through which you view the world.
“A person does not have to be behind bars to be a prisoner. People can be prisoners of their own concepts and ideas. They can be slaves to their own selves.” – Maharaji
Mitch felt he had little worth, he felt depreciated by others and felt cheated and stepped on. At school he was bullied quite possibly because he didn’t feel so great about himself. To defend himself he hid behind a wall of distrust and put others down to elevate himself. He sank into terrible feelings of loneliness and isolation, cutting himself and turning to drugs and alcohol.
“Compulsive and addictive behaviors such as overeating, compulsive exercise, gambling, spending, workaholism, relationship addiction, and drug and alcohol abuse are born of intense craving for nurturing, affection, connection and personal power. Under the surface of compulsive behaviors lies an insecure, frightened and angry individual crying out in loneliness, isolation, helplessness, fear and anger. Compulsive behaviors represent an attempt at survival, security, satisfaction identity and safety. The compulsions become replacement for nurturing; the means to diminish anxiety and insecurity, and experience brief pleasure and gratification; the means to repress anger and hostility; and an avenue to find temporary security. Compulsive behaviors represent the paradox of both an overwhelming desire for connectedness and a fear of intimacy and conflict. The spending, hoarding, sex, compulsive work, etc., reflect an effort to protect oneself against overwhelming feelings of helplessness, hopelessness and fear of abandonment should emotions held in check be released. Good and Mad: Transform Anger Using Mind, Body, Soul and Humor ~ By Jane Middelton-Moz, Lisa Tener, Peaco Todd
When I scanned Mitch’s energy field during our distant healing session, his aura was like a wall of steel not wanting or letting anything through. Mitch had gone through many trials in his young life, including physical abuse, abandonment by an alcoholic father and trying to cope with a learning disability. His strong feelings had never been talked about or dealt with. They were buried. The more we conversed over email and skype, the more I realized how great the tension was between him and his parents. Mitch left home at 15 years old and lived on the streets for almost a year.
(Any type of armor around the body represents all a person’s accumulated feelings and repressed rage that’s never been processed. Mitch had only one planet in water (Sun in Cancer in 4th house)—he was definitely not comfortable in the world of feelings, or expressing himself well—another reason why his wall was created. But this form of protected armor was causing tissue inflammation and muscle pain in his body.)
Cortisol can create a fearful, threatened feeling that over-stimulates our whole system. Unexplained muscle aches, chronic headaches, feeling hopeless or helpless and crying more than usual are signs of chronic anxiety. Anxiety coupled with cortisol has been known to cause unexplained heart palpitations, a nervous stomach, road rage and short temperedness.
“The Ascendant also represents the body and with Neptune in conflict, we could by physically below par – mostly due to our uncertainty. When we are going through a difficult patch we may need to sleep on our problems, and we can suffer from tiredness without obvious physical cause. Creative talents can be wonderfully stimulated if we take up artistic or mystical pursuits.” ‘Aspects and Personality’ by Karen Hamaker-Zondag
Cancer is a cardinal sign and for many a Cancer business is the strongest creative outlet in the horoscope. But Cancer is looking for fulfillment for the Moon, for something that is nurturing to do, for people who need help.
MOON in LIBRA CONJUNCT MARS – TRINE URANUS and NEPTUNE
The moon is normally associated with home, family life, one’s mother, motherhood, bonding with others and habits and behaviors. Anatomically the moon represents the stomach, which emphasizes a direct link between what we eat and how we feel. It also provides clues to what may be “eating” at us. Cancers tend to eat when their inner child has been deprived; emotionally starved, neglected or abandoned. Each of us responds to the Moon’s cycle in our own unique manner and through its regular rhythm, it can provide us with clues to the direction our unconscious is taking.
“You may be surprised to learn that your food absorbs and transmits consciousness…and the subtle energies in your meals can profoundly influence your entire life. When you take the time to tune in and connect with the vast array of energy fields within your meal, magic happens. Suddenly you’re no longer contained by the confines of your identity and your physical body. You enter into the awareness that you’re not separate from the universe. Each item of food you ingest can be a key that opens doors of perception and connection…..
Your food is indeed composed of undulating energy fields that can profoundly impact your life. Many people view their physical body as a static biological entity. However, in reality, your body is a vibrating, intelligent force field of energy that’s constantly transforming and renewing itself. When the viable energies of your food interface with the energy flows of your physical form, it allows you to step into a higher level of spiritual frequency. (But only if you understand how to attune to those fields; this is one of the secret recipes for savoring your life.)” Denise Lin and Meadlow Lin ~ The Mystic Cookbook
“We who have Moon in Libra crave the experience of beauty and peace; we seek to co-operate with others, to please, and to establish one-to-one relationships which are mutually gratifying. We also find satisfaction in using our minds, particularly our powers of objectivity and synthesis. A parent who valued us highly, and enjoyed pleasing us; who encouraged our aesthetic and intellectual development, and who was willing and able to appreciate our points of view… may have helped us to become attuned to the constructive dimensions of our Libran Moon.
If, however, our Moon is in difficult aspect, or if its trines or sextiles suggest a parent who was only superficially available to us, we may be attempting to gain from a partner what we were never able to experience from our parents. We may become overly dependent upon others, seeking to win their favor by being indispensable and satisfying their every desire. We may also be inclined to avoid confronting our anger and pain, suppressing emotions because we fear any threat to our relationships which might force us to acknowledge our separateness and aloneness. These patterns may have been influenced by a parent figure who placed too much emphasis upon appearance or surface harmony, who was unable to tolerate discord, or who led us to believe that relationship always means subordinating oneself to another. Such a mother or father may have brought many unfulfilled needs into parenting, expecting us to compensate for deficiencies he or she experienced in childhood or marriage.
Although our Libra Moons suggest that our emotional fulfillment requires co-operative relationships with others, we can only build truly satisfying connections by first developing a secure relationship with ourselves, accepting as valid our own feelings and needs, and being willing to assert ourselves, even when it means experiencing temporary discord for the sake of deeper and more authentic contact. We need to apply our openmindedness and our capacity to identify with many points of view in relation to both ourselves and others – to listen to and affirm each of our internal personalities, willingly entering into disharmony and imbalance when necessary in order to create the more enduring harmony and balance which is so vital to us. At the same time, we need to honor our Libran need for beauty and peace, creating environments and relationships which, whenever possible, soothe and uplift us.” ~ Tracy Marks
The moon in astrology represents the mother, your first bond with life and your early experiences of how she loved, protected and cared for you. The Moon represents how we were emotionally held and provided a place of safety so we could explore and express our feelings, no matter what they were. The Moon in Libra is a bit uncomfortable because the Moon is feminine and Libra is Masculine—the Moon is emotional—Libra is logical.
When I asked Mitch to describe his mother he said point-blank “a people pleaser”. He said his mom couldn’t say no to anyone and it would really tie her in knots when she couldn’t help someone. “She gave the appearance that everything in her life was ok, even when her problems were obvious .. at home she could be critical fuzzy and demanding.. but she allowed herelf to be used, especially my father. My dad was an alcoholic and mom would go about her days avoiding it, ‘keeping up appearances’ with friends and family. She was well read and had an enormous library of music and books but kept a blind-eye to what was happening in her life. Mom even had a tendency to turn her problems into jokes; this way no one could confront or question her lack of insight into her financial and marital problems. Some of her best friends were lost because they saw through her façade … they couldn’t understand why she didn’t want help or to help herself. When I ran away from home she was deeply hurt but probably knew deep down inside it was best for me to leave the abuse of my father”.
When we turned the tables and looked at what the Moon in Libra meant Mitch, he had to laugh, “my mom wanted to be friends with everyone, where here I am fighting everyone like a raving maniac! I’m afraid of my emotions because their so intense”. Where my mom wouldn’t make a scene, scream or put anyone down I’m totally the opposite. Mom didn’t realize the shame I had about our family and it only grew worse because she wouldn’t talk about it.”
With the Moon conjunct Mars we tend to react without thinking and may impulsively, angrily leap into action. Coupled with Uranus, even though a trine, indicates spurts of little shocks that come like a bolt out of the blue. With these aspect comes great sensitivity and intuitive abilities as well as erratic mood changes—Mars and Uranus with the every-changing Moon may appear to others as unpredictable or unreliable, lacking in commitment and responsibility.
“Every time they revert to Moon behavior, or, in other words, to a search for peace and safety, Uranus springs into action, and the planet, although intervening harmoniously, does tend to make them restless and impulsive. In breaking free they may also want to be unconventional, and interests may include astrology or esotericism, subjects which lie outside the present scientific world-picture. Of course, by no means everyone with strong Uranus aspects will become an astrologer, but they will probably be interested in something pioneering – say some innovative branch of technology like radar.
Once they have found an interest, then they can throw themselves into it heart and soul. They become absorbed in each new bright idea. Not all of these are likely to be usable, but that’s not important; what matters is that the idea interests them intensely, and they have scant patience with the comments or criticisms of others. These people always give full rein to individuality and act according to what they think at the time. Possibly they shall bring about reforms in society, but these attitudes can also isolate them. Not for nothing is Uranus called an eccentric, solitary planet; and Uranians feel compelled to push themselves forward in order to express their individuality although, incidentally, they would be scandalized at the suggestion that they were being egotistic or self-centred.” Karen Hamaker-Zondag ~ Aspects and Personality
NEPTUNE CONJUNCT *MIDHEAVEN – SQUARE ASCENDANT – SQUARE CHIRON – CONJUNCT URANUS
*The MidHeaven (10th house) represents our direction in life, what we strive to achieve, what we are reaching up for …
Some people with the aspect, Neptune conjunct Midheaven (MC) suffer from identity problems most probably caused by parents who already decided what ‘they want’ for their child. As a result the child can grow up wondering who they are and what their role might be in life. This is why Mitch has become so super-sensitive to what others think and say. When we talked of his parents, he said he hated them and had even told them this to their face. Was it true? No, I think he was using these harsh words as a verb weapon to get my and their attention. He wrote more than once, “I haven’t done anything wrong, it’s all ‘their’ fault’. He also wrote “I’ve always felt like I was born in the wrong family, like what I wanted, what I cared about was completely opposite of my parents.”
The 4th house, Imum Coecli (IC) represents our heritage, our home and family’. The Moon is the ruler of this house (Cancer) representing our upbringing, the mother and our needs, instincts, and subconscious urges. The Sun rules this house in Mitch’s chart, it indicates one’s ego, vitality, pride and leadership. The Sun, not well aspected in Mitch’s chart showed he didn’t think much of himself or his sense of self-worth and that most of his upbringing was from his mother. Insecure, she didn’t reflect his sense of self-worth and he lacked a healthy ego that affected his feelings about himself. With Sun square Saturn in the 4th house, the mother was deeply insecure herself … you see Mitch’s dad was an alcoholic and abandoned or was absent most of Mitch’s life.
Excellent article on the 4th house http://www.astro.com/astrology/in_dgfourthhouse_e.htm
With Neptune conjunct Midheaven (10th house), Mitch needs to find a job in a quiet, low-stress environment that allows him to daydream, fantasize and create. With this aspect he is likely to dedicate a great deal of his time and energy to his chosen career because it will provide him with a tremendous sense of fulfillment, something he couldn’t match in other areas of his life. He also needs to develop some outside interests and form some personal relationships; this will keep him balanced.
Sometimes the 10th house is related to the father, who in Mitch’s case was withdrawn in a world of disillusion. His father could have shown Mitch all the negative attributes of Neptune: alcoholism, drug-addiction, chronic mental or physical illness, weak character, or all of the above. Mitch needs to examine his beliefs about why his father was in his life instead of avoiding the issue. When he does this he’ll discover, understand and appreciate his Neptunian gifts. (Mitch is being counseled as we speak.)
Mitch has a wonderful imaginative talent and loves painting mythological creatures and anything to do with the fantasy world. He’s written poetry that is truly alive with deeply felt emotions and feelings. Just as we need sleep, he needs to escape to a dream world of magical spirits and whimsical creatures; it helps him relax and to transform his visions into works of art. It is very probable Mitch is here to inspire us to our sense of wonder and to learn how to free our imagination.
Mitch and I talked about him taking an art workshop, or creative writing, which would bring his talents out and could also be an effective counselling tool. We also explored meditation, some which are located on this blog.
URANUS ~ BREATHE
“Uranus is the first of the higher octave planets. It describes a quality of electric energy that is very high in vibration. …
Uranus also describes healing, enlightenment and mental brilliance ~ for a person it show one who is a humanitarian, individual and unique. Special and unusual situations occur when Uranus is stimulated in our chart. They can lead to new awareness as a result of breaking up old patterns. A person who has Uranus strong in their chart can be rebellious, high-strung and nervous. At times the electrical energy in our bodies is so strong it can cause physical conditions such as bronchitis, allergies, asthma, etc.. So you could say the body’s on overload, and we need to let off all that excess steam within our own system so we don’t damage our health.
Uranus rules the breathing mechanism as well as indicating the nervous system, tension may produce shallow breathing or a general lack of oxygen in the system. The meridians in the body may be reversed. (Meridians are the lines that connect acumpuncture points in the body.) Reversed meridians may lead to what appear to be learning disabiities. Actually the individual may learn so rapidly and be so far ahead of the norm that he tends to jam his own circuits by trying to slow down or cnform to the methods of others. This is especially true if there are difficult aspects to Mercury or to the ruler of the third house of communications. In extreme situations, those difficult aspects may indicate a potential for dyslexia as a result of those reversed meridians.” Astrology and Your Past Lives ~ Jeanne Avery
We contract or hold-in our breath, when we’re tense or protecting ourselves from something or someone in our environment. Usually when we feel safe, the body relaxes; the breathing slows down and drops farther into the belly, becoming deeper and more nurturing. But if we continue to tense up this area, our breathing becomes shallower and the body’s back and neck will have to compensate for it. With the lungs imbalanced, the neck will be forced to crane forward, having to physically carry the weight of the head rather than allowing it to balance naturally on the spine. The neck pulled forward causes undue strain in many of the muscles in the shoulder and back area.
When working on Mitch’s energy body, his breathing appeared shorter, shallower and more in the chest than in the belly. The muscle that is responsible for controlling the lungs is the diaphragm (ruled by Uranus). This is a large dome-shaped muscle that separates the chest cavity from the abdomen. It lies directly under the lungs and when we breathe in the muscle stretches out to let air into the lungs. As you exhale, the diaphragm curves inwards and upwards to force all the unwanted air out of our lungs. The diaphragm is one of the most under-used muscles in the human body.
“Uranus represents the need for independence and originality; it crashes through forms and restraints and helps develop individuality on the basis of inwardly desired change. Neptune on the other hand, represents the desire to experience what lies beyond individuality itself. Hence it stands for a need to disassociate and blur things, to idealize and perfect them. But there is a danger of the individual mind becoming chaotic and losing itself in the collective. When the two factors come together, as they do here, we get a highly idealistic personality displaying an impersonal attitude every now and then.” Aspects and Personaltiy ~ Karen Hamaker-Zondag
A lack of life-energy (chi) can cause the entire body to experience health problems and cause the entire body to slowly deteriorate. I suspected Mitch had a skin condition and called him on it. Mitch said he suffers from a skin condition called psoriasis.
Psoriasis is an immune disorder said to originate in the intestinal tract. (Mitch’s 6th house in Virgo rules the intestinal tract and this area of the body is where he’s most affected). Those familiar with leaky-gut syndrome know that toxic substances that normally pass through the intestines are instead seeped through the walls, entering the lymphatic system and invading the blood stream. The liver and kidneys attempt to filter out these toxins but when the liver becomes overloaded the skin comes to the rescue to help eliminate them. Psoriasis, then, is an overproduction of skin cells that cause a pileup of dead cells, thickening the skin with raised red patches. Metaphysically this is a mental issue of patterns and attitudes that are already dead and finished with but haven’t yet been released.
Mars in the 6th house can get quite a deal of angry and impatient when our ordinary day-to-day life isn’t going as planned. Fuming over what was, burns up a lot of reserved energy, burning out the adrenals and feeling quite anxious. Again with Mitch we see an accumulation of repressed rage and suppressed feelings that never got processed. Interestingly, in the aura, these appear as dark red spots that can be quite explosive when disturbed.
“Each feeling contains atomic particles, and the feelings which are denied contain particles which spin at a greater force than normal because their natural movement has been suppressed. This greater intensity of spin creates the color, red. When there is a large accumulation of these particles, the energy can no longer be contained, which results in an explosive force which you perceive as violence. This may express itself as a tantrum, as abrasive behavior, belligerence, insult, physical abuse, rape, or even murder. ‘Seeing red’ is an actual phenomenon.” Color and Crystals ~ Joy Gardener
SUMMARY OF MITCH’S HEALING/CHART
There was a lot of personal information discussed with Mitch that wasn’t explained here. In regard to astrology, For instance, I showed him all the retrogrades (R’s) in his chart, which means that from the earth, these planets (Jupiter, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto) appear to be moving backwards. Because Mitch had so many of them, it means he has to figure a lot of things out for himself, to go within and discover his truths. Once he is able to get himself sorted out, then he’d feel more comfortable interacting with the world.
“Escapism, daydreaming, and fantasies attract, and you may retreat into an ideal and perfect inner world where all is good. This is the conflict between illusions and external reality which reflects the interplay between the Virgoan dream of perfection and the Piscean dream of idealism. A misapplication of these impair your ability to deal with the real world”. North Node In Virgo ~ Paul Hayden
We also talked in great length about aspects to the Moon, Mars, Chiron and the North Node which are all placed in his sixth house. Mitch really wants to push his way through life and once back on track, make up for lost time in his past. It could mean he may have to do a lot of physical work but will have to watch his health. When Mitch was young he had a tendency to run high fevers when run down.
This quote summarizes Mitch’s repressed rage..
“Although it is not like Ares, if he did hold in his anger, he would probably suffer regularly from headaches or more generally turn his aggression against the body. (With the planet Mars in the 6th, feelings and impulses register very strongly in the body and must find some sort of expression if it is not going to short-circuit and blow a fuse.)” Howard Sasportas
With an Aries rising, Mars, Chiron and North Node all in his 6th house Mitch has a great combination of air (intellect) and earth (practicality) to live the way he wants and where he wants. The solution, he has a lot of work to do on himself; Virgo is associated with exercise, health foods, healing and natural products, an area he needs to explore. Virgo is always striving to learn; this sign needs some form of study to stimulate the mind and Mitch is thinking of going through a graphic arts class sponsored through a government funded program and he’s really interested in exploring the artistic field, especially fantasy art.
“Integration only comes to this individual through service. Must come out of his shell and work. Has been isolated through self-undoing in the past. Either enforced seclusion, or restrictions due to lack of compassion in the past, has made it easy to retreat this time. Fulfilment comes to this individual through serving others and losing the sense of separateness. Humility, the last virtue to be attained, can be the keynote of hits life if the individual is willing to serve others with no concern about the self. In order for any of us to become something, we have to be willing to be nothing. This is the message of the sixth house.” ~ Isabel Hickey
The main thing Mitch and I worked on was for him to be less aggressive and more “assertive”. The key to being assertive is using the “I” statement. When someone says “I feel frustrated” we open to what they have to say. People are usually more willing to listen to an “I” statement—and—being assertive builds our self-esteem—it’s validating our feelings and opinions. I also told him being assertive wasn’t going to change people; they still may be verbally abusive; but if he made it his goal to stick up for his opinion, even though they spoke the same way, it was a victory for him.
Important aspects such as Chiron opposite Saturn cannot be denied and applied so strongly in Mitch’s chart. This is what I wrote him … Chiron opposite Saturn emphasizes the need to strip away old, outmoded forms of self-expression. We’re challenged to become aware of our woundedness in the areas of thoughts, perceptions and communication. This means playing around with ideas, thoughts and words: what ideas do you have that might move you beyond your current situation? Try out some of these ideas and experiment; have fun with them. For instance do you often feel you’re not heard by other people? Perhaps you could learn more effective ways of communicating or choose to be better a better listener. Are you intimated by what others expect of you, losing touch with your own ideas and opinions? Maybe you could learn how to consciously redefine yourself at regular intervals. Be receptive to feedback from trusted friends, but choose what is right for you in the end. Try not to react to what others are saying but take it in as food for thought. If you’re tempted to react or get angry, let that anger spur you into action for your own self-development.
Mitch has been in spiritual counselling for about six months now. He’s also seeing a naturopath who gives freely of her time to teach him of the respective foods and supplements he should be taking. Definitely 3000 mg. Omega 3 daily, was at the top of the list along with a Candida diet and moderate exercise. L-Glutamine and N-acetyl glucosamine are excellent for rebuilding the stomach wall. Mitch was also told to try a homeopathic medicine called Kapli Sulphate, a cell salt for Virgo which neutralizes the acidity in the blood.
Mitch is on Depakote and Seroquel for his bipolar, but Seroquel has been causing him muscular spasms and is presently being weaned off of them.
I promised him the next article on this blog will be an in-depth study into Psoriasis ….
Links to follow …
Excellent article “What a Shaman Sees in a Mental Hospital” themindunleashed.org/2014/08/shaman-sees-mental-hospital.html
Neptune conjunct Midheaven ~ “Any planet conjunct one of the four angles is significant, and when that planet is the outer planet symbolizing spirituality, sensitivity, idealism, the arts, illusion, delusion, surrender and personal sacrifice, it is very significant indeed. Born when Neptune was as high in the sky as it could be on the day of your birth, your career will probably be related to the arts, film, medicine, service, and/or the ocean. Who, what, and how you profess yourself to be will have a deeply sensitive and spiritualized tone. You may be denied some of the natural ego gratification or public acclaim many seek in a career. With other contributing influences you could even serve as a psychic or a sensitive. You have a natural sense of what the public wants and dreams, and can project images of the desirable or the ideal in an enchanting and spellbinding manner.”