One of the greatest methods of teaching I learned was astrology. Enrolled in a class with people from all walks of life (nurses, policemen, secretaries, alternative healers, teachers, etc.) we embarked on a learning that would change our life.
I thought I’d delve into this interesting topic a little deeper. In one particular seminar, astrologer Robin Armstrong was discussing the houses, the topic, “How do you hold yourself together through the good and bad experiences in life? How do you hold yourself together and still be here? What makes you tick? What is the backbone of your character? Here’s what I learned……
Everyone in this world has different backbones, so the answer would have to be multifaceted. We all come from our families and home, start school, high school, college, find a job, get married, etc.. How do you hold yourself together when you go out into the world? Or do you? What motivates you? We all have different motivations and we are all motivated by the mother we come out of. Why? Because, the core of where we are coming from wants, desires, security, a home. We don’t fully understand why we’re doing it, but we can find ourselves in life and death situations through different motivations.
Personal Integrity is the ability to integrate the different fabrics of what come into you and out of you and how you live with yourself. It is the ability to find your ‘root’ (personal subjectivity), your inner most core and be able to ‘stand’ through the many turbulent changes and transitions in life. When you get hurt, intuit a strong feeling, do you lose it all, throw it all away or stay centered in yourself. If a loved one passes on, how do you cope? If you overreact, misinterpret something, can you forgive yourself, live with yourself? How do you hold up in the face of opposition?
Our Rising sign will do anything to get encouragement and attention from others. Words of praise motivates us personally—we spin around and out from our inner motivations, from where we come from, our roots, our culture, our homes, our mothers. Everyday we go in, we go out, we see what we can do and get a ‘pulsing’ of certain attitudes and patterns—it’s how we dance through life. We often expect everyone to accept where we’re coming from and that doesn’t always happen, does it?
One of the students in the class asked if integrity and values had similar meanings. We were told values are an outward expression, integrity is about our own inner truth.
So if Truth is US,—why are we always struggling to seek something we can’t seem to grasp? Can anyone answer this question?
Many of us are motivated for all different sorts of things and have various degrees of personal integrity or lack of it. Integrity is the deepest point within ourselves, it’s not a static point, it’s not just a thing, it’s a ‘presence’, it’s like a Star-light and very few people live consciously in that point of their life. And those that do, we rarely meet because they don’t want to interrupted—they’re deep inside their own personal world!
How do you live with yourself? The world doesn’t stay the same, it keeps turning—we go through change and so does the outside world—we become ‘attached’ inwardly and outwardly—we have different focuses—everyday we take in and give out energy. Some days we ‘stay deep within our home’, other days we go out, extend ourselves and affect others. Once you project you see your affects on other people—and if you get an affect you will project further—and if you don’t you’ll back off and try something else. If not, you’ll get insecure about it. So our Rising sign, Ascendant, 1st house is how we project ourselves and our Descendant is how others react to us. We all bounce off each other in different ways and we can get along with anybody as long as we are okay with who they are.
Our ascendant and descendant are in opposition to each other. They fight each other in ourselves! Sometimes we have an awareness of them but most of the time we are in a dilemma about them—especially what we put out and the reactions we get. If we start getting reactions we don’t want we have to come to terms with it and do it different. We push things one way or another and we build up extremes in one area. As soon as this happens we are not dealing with the other half. And if we can’t deal with it, we tend to disassociate, forget about it, move on.
Aries, Taurus, Gemini Cancer, Leo and Virgo are all motivated by a certain amount of freedom and independence—they don’t like others cramping their style. They need space. It doesn’t mean these signs can’t relate or have relationships, it just means you are centered, motivated and held together by You—not so much by belonging.
People with Libra, Scorpio Sagittarius, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces are motivated by ‘how they belong’. “Whose doing things with Me—let’s build it together’ and this gets more complicated.
Our deepest point within, the Immun Coeli (IC), is the most important point in our chart and the most ignored in Astrology—because everything spins around your ‘personal integrity. The immune coeli, the 4th house is where you came from, your foundation, your security. It is the point of midnight in the horoscope and is seen as a symbol of the soul, its origins, homeland, family, our inner most issues, our past, or past lives. It is the You that gets up and puts on a face to greet the world. It’s You that goes out the door before you even react to anybody. So the IC is your anchor, where you are relating to everyone else and where you are coming from out of the world outside of yourself. And if we aren’t anchored deep within this point we can become overwhelmed by situations, crowds, noise, people, odors, temperatures and all other sudden changes. If we try to process different degrees of depth, we begin filtering criticisms, rejections, betrayals, losses and deaths.
So how do we live with ourselves, hold ourselves together, stay centered, take impressions in and put them out? By living our own personal inner truth. And it’s not rational, it’s not centered by other people, it’s in ourselves! So everything below the horizon represents our deeper subjective being. It is the umbilical cord of the soul—how you got connected to your body in the first place.
Integrity is so simple yet so powerful! It means subjective motivation and personal power. The problem is we are always aligning ourselves one way or another, positive or negative to conditions and people in our life. To the soul it doesn’t matter, it’s still going to experience—but through these experiences we begin holding judgments and layer upon layer they become crystallized onto our ‘wheel’. It can take months, years to recognize and peel away the buildup and eliminate them from our unconscious.
Our quest is to discover who we are in this most deepest point and take the risk of being unique in ourselves. We then will find the way of living and feeling rich, empowered and authentic.
The IC is connected to a powerful line that ascends to the Midheaven. This is called the line of consciousness. The Midheaven is the highest point in the sky. It is the peak of our accomplishments, our status, honor, respect, position, what kind of career you have and how much you accomplish each day. It represents our social integrity and our communal relations—what type of job we have and how we hold it altogether. The higher the profile, the higher we have to hold ourselves in our community It’s where we push out to be somebody each and everyday.
Putting time out in the world requires effort to do it. How responsible are you for what you put out in the world. If something goes right or wrong are you ready to back it up? Are you ready to pay for the price of your mistakes as well as the benefits of your victories? If you go bankrupt will you still pay everyone you owe? If you don’t there will be repercussions.
How many people can have an effect on others and still not have their career ruined? We are in contact with lower energies and it takes Integrity to react to the status we want to achieve.
We are all coming from our past moving towards our future. With different priorities, different values, different game plans—they change daily. The sun goes up, the sun goes down—we go around our chart, changing and accumulating to it daily. We can’t change what happened but we can add to it today—which is the essential basis in healing.
We all have challenges of how we tap into each house and how we express each sign. We want it all to be alive as much as we can, but most of us live in only one point of our charts at one time. We jump from one point to another instead of learning to extend it so that it all comes alive at one time.
This is what The Healing Room is all about. It is about discovering that part of us that never changes. When we find that point it cleanses our mind and body of thoughts, feelings and memories that have stood in the way of our own healing. It is about increasing the body’s energy flow and rebalancing the whole system. It is about discovering and resonating with your own integrity. It’s about being conscious of our own power.